I was scrolling through my blog and figured out that my word for 2017 was ‘letting go’. Have I really let go this year, is a question I’ve been asking myself. The answer would be yes, to an extent.
I started driving in the beginning of the year. Just when I thought I was confident enough, I met with an accident. Not a major one or anything but big enough to instill the about-to-vanish fear back into my system again. I still drive, but only when necessary. I have become a more cautious driver now. So the fact that that I started doing it despite the hurdle in between means I am in a better position than where I was in the beginning of the year.
I let go off sugar. As someone who doesn’t believe in any kind of abstinence, this sugar detox totally surprised me. When I thought of giving up in between, people started telling I’ve lost weight. What more does a girl needs to hear? So I went back to it. (Although there are still days like yesterday where the neighbor tempted me with Srivilliputhur Paalgova and Tirunelveli halwa all at one go and I had to give in ‘cos what’s life without that bit of sweet anyway!)
I started singing on stage. It took a lot of overcoming fear on my part to do this. Even though these performances are only ‘groupula dupu’ level, I learnt that there’s quite a bit of effort involved in doing this.
I began drawing zentangles and mandalas. I used to draw and paint in school but I was quite average at it. There are quite a few people on Instagram who do things like Madhubani and adult coloring which made me try these things out. Again, I am not too good at it but the fact that I take the effort to try it is a big plus for me.
I joined a tailoring class. A friend of mine has started teaching both machine tailoring and hand embroidery and I got tempted by it. Today was the first day and honestly I suck at it. But then again, I am not going to give up; just to see how far I can go.
The big thing I failed in doing is letting go of laziness and studying further for bettering my job prospects. For that, there’s 2018 anyway. Well, today I am happy about how far I’ve come.